"And Death is not real, even in the Relative sense -- it is but Birth to a new life -- and You shall go on, and on, and on, to higher and still higher planes of life, for aeons upon aeons of time. The Universe is you home, and you shall explore its farthest recesses before the end of Time. You are dwelling n the Infinite Mind of THE ALL, and your possibilities and opportunities are infinite, both in time and space. And at the end of the Grand Cycle of Aeons, when THE ALL shall draw back into itself all of its creations -- you will go gladly for you will then be able to know the Whole Truth of being At One with THE ALL." - The Kybalion.
I read that today during my free period and I felt tears come to my eyes. My first thought was how foolish have I been to fear death, when I've known such a thing all along. Maybe not on a conscious level - but I do know this. I've always known this. And with any luck I won't forget it again. I reread that small section once more and continued wondering why such a wonderful thing would bring tears to my eyes. Certainly I've been emotionally on edge lately, but the Kybalion has never made me feel such things.
I realized very quickly it wasn't because such words made me sad, but because for once I really understood what it meant in The Alchemist when it talks about the whole universe getting together trying to bring us to our heart's desire - to our legacy.
It's rare I'll bring my spiritual beliefs into my journal....but...those who do read it, I trust greatly. I trust them to, even if they disagree, to understand that they are MY beliefs. I'm not forcing them on anyone, and I have no problems with being questioned. More to the point, I want to learn. I know for a fact that I have at least one dear friend with different beliefs, and I LOVE to learn.
Like today...for example. According to my calender, it's Ash Wednesday. All I know about that is that it might have something to do with lent. I know nothing, and would love to really know more. While I highly doubt I'd ever convert, I don't view it as that.
Rather....with the knowledge that 'The All' is both mother and father in one....that means that someone's God and my Goddess are one in the same. And that I have no problem being guided by both. While my path with the Sisterhood of Avalon is a purely female path, most of our members have a history in some other faith.
I'm not to sure why I have such a desire at the moment to learn...I just feel as if it might bring me closer to some people, and closer to understand the Kybalion. (Though I'm beginning to wonder if those who wrote it have even the first clue what they were talking about either. )
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On a side note. I've been coming very close to gaining closure about the issue with Lucas. I know...I still have to actually speak to him. But lately I've been realizing how childish I've been....blaming one person for all of the problems I've ever had with guys. I think I understand now...that at the end of the day...it's not his fault that everything else has happened. And certainly not entirely his fault that I have been so weak when it comes to talking with him again. And it's far from his fault that I've been making poor decisions about my life since then. I don't know what I'll say to him. I'm not even sure if I even need to speak with him anymore having finally come to some of these conclusions.
A closing thought.....
If you love someone....make sure they know it. Make sure they don't have to guess and hope it's true. Even if it's not by saying 'I love you'....even if it's not in kissing...make sure that special someone...never has a doubt.
 Evelie Harte · Thu Feb 26, 2009 @ 12:00am · 0 Comments |
