allright then, since gaia erased my journel entrys since december 17th i figure time for a new one. So lets get started, i've been reflecting on my past and i can't say it's a happy one. I've also been thinking about my future and all i can say is "OH ********." and presently classes are allright i've been doing fine. but lets get into specifics on each one
Past: Mostly been reflecting on my love life (if people request it i can post the whole sum of my love life, because i wrote that up a while ago.) but yeah that sucks. unrequanted love, cheated on, let for someone else, not working out yeah? but also some of the other stuff. like school, not a great thing. bullyed and failed at every turn. the failing i get, but the bullying i don't. sure i was a nerd but come on i did fight back. and who gets in trouble, if you guessed them you failed. i got in trouble for all of it, apprantly being picked on and spit on and kicked in the ribs after i trip is not just cause to hit a jackass. anyway, basically all i did was read. anything to get me out of that world and into another. i probally finshed maybe 3/4ths of all the fantasy books the library had. the teachers did'nt really mind that i was reading but i didn't get work done. the only classes i really worked in were shop and art classes. shop was a given work in class, the guy that thought it was a real hard a** basturd. and art, i liked art even back then, though not as much as i do now. i must say that even though the class wasn't great it gave me all the basics i could possibly need. anyway enough about the middle school years, high school now. yeah i was lucky to get in. sent a letter to the alternative school they let me go there. basically the same thing as the last school cept one thing, i would pass with D's. yeah i waited to the end of the quarter and got all the back work, i crunched it out and just barely passed but i worked better that way. i'm not going to go into my love life just now but thats only cause right now i don't feel like it. anyway i'm done with all the past i feel like shareing.
Present: allright, i'm in classes to learn what i need to learn to take the ged, no biggy there. i broke up with rin cause it wasn't working out. i'm going to stay single for a while. i recently found out that rin almost died oding. and thats all you need to know of that
Future: if i don't get my art skills up higher then i have them right now i'm basically screwed. and thats all i really see for my future that i want to share
if you read all that, well now your depressed aren't you. sorry but this is all truth. this is my life, at least all i'm willing to share for now. i can post more later but i'm not going to now. anyway if you did read this thanks for sticking with it all the way through
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i know what it's like getting picked on it wasn't until high school i stopped getting picked on and yeah sure i'm in my last 2 years of it but things are looking better... i nearly had a broken spine in year 8 all cos i wanted to get a book and a load of blads came up got me on the floor and started kicking me... got perminant back damage from that and so that means i can't lift heavy things or anything that means i have to bend my legs first without help from someone else or i'll do my back in and have more then kidney failure.... anyway i know how high and middle school is like as well i'm still in high school and i remeber middle school....
i've been depressed lately and i dunno when i'll recover from it but i know what it's like to also be depressed.... not sure about love life as i've now got a b/f and i aint really had my heart broken so can't say how i feel about that but i guess you should have concentrated on your work more if you wanted to pass easily.... if i get lower then a C the teachers will be worried about me as i usually get at least a B- ..... but yeah i understand a bit of what you've been through.... and sorry about your love life not doing too well