i dont know where to start....but i guess i should start some where.i died.and i didnt go to heaven or hell.i stayed on earth watching the little kids run in the parks, watching seasons go by, watched the leaves change from green to orange, and most important i watched him live his life.i found an abandoned house so i could be near him.although i never forgave him though......
my journal.
Sept.3
my life was perfect.i never wanted anything more.but aside that i always felt lonely.people tell me that falling in love was beautiful.but it was hard.
Sept.10
i met him for the first time.he was gorgeous.and everything i wanted.but we were just friends,and nothing more.and besides he already had someone (well it looks like that.)
Sept.31
he called me for the first time.i was shocked that he would actually call me.
Oct.31he told me liked me.then everything changed.everything was different....
Nov.26
he avioded me.
Dec.2
had our first fight.
for the rest of the month we fought,and fought.
for the rest of the month we kept fighting, if it wasnt about something big then it had to be something little.things got alot harder,and i grew to be bitter.i grew tired,and i would forget why i loved him.and at times i would hate him...but then there were times when i rembered when he made me laugh, and cry.
Dec.31
"at one point i actually loved you.but now i all i can do is resent you.i wish you luck.good bye."he told me.
"at one point i actually loved you.but but now i feel nothing,now im bitter b'cos of you."we parted our ways and hoped to never see each other again.
he never knew that i still loved him.but i guess it was for the best.when you really love someone,you let them go and be happy,even if the reason why they're happy is when your not near them.
Jan.2
i knew by then i should get over him.but all i did was wonder.wondered if he missed me.but at the same time i hated him,and myself.just when i get something i wanted it turns out to be the opposite.
Jan.4
i saw him today at the coffee shop.he was with another women,and he looked happy with her.i nearly cried though.i ran to my order,and i guess he saw me.by his look he was dissappointed,and i guess i shouldnt blame him.
Jan.10
ever since that day i stopped near the coffee shop when i had the chance to try and look at him again.but he never came back.im not really surprise,or dissappotined.but seeing his face brought back memories not the grreatest but they forever stayed in my heart.
Jan.13
i stopped near the park.and there he was alone.he saw me and he started running.afarid i was stalking him.
*sighs*
Jan.16
again i saw him not at the park or at the coffee shop but at the ocean.
"look i thought we had our seprate ways.why are you following me?!"he yelled
"im not following you.im just going back to places that remind me.dont get mad over such a silly little thing."i chuckled."good bye." and i walked along the beach.
i walked crying along side the beach.he really wanted things to end.
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 kimchi_yumi · Thu Dec 25, 2008 @ 01:47am · 0 Comments |
