Some people are afraid of dogs or heights, while others are afraid of other things like changes, commitment or even death. Me I’m not really afraid of those thing in fact I love dogs heights are okay I can dill with those. Change and death is inevitable so is commitment, but what I am afraid of is forgetting no not me forgetting but being forgotten. No one knows me no one cares and there is nothing that I can do about it that is what I’m afraid of. To not be needed, that when I die no one will notice I’m gone that my tombstone will crumble and no one will remember who I was what I was about. A lot of people don’t like me already, they don’t notice if I’m gone or if I’m sitting right next to them. I even had a friend or to tell me that if something happened to me that they wouldn’t misses me, or that in one of my friends cases she doesn’t like anyone at our school and that Sam is her only friend well that made me feel loved. No one really talks to me to its more or less me that’s starts to talk to them or they ask me a question, but I guess that some of it is my fault I’m not one of the easiest people in the world to talk to like with Ragsdale last year he started to randomly mess with me and asking me out I of course said no why well for one this happened in the middle of eighth grade year and before that he paid no attention to me but still…I think its because I’m fat but I don’t know.
 Tsukino Hiyasha · Tue Dec 09, 2008 @ 11:29pm · 0 Comments |
