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Why don't good things happen to me?

All throughout my life, I've been ******** over time and time again.

Why does it keep happening?

Is there just something about me that causes these things to happen?

Why can't there just be someone there who accepts me for who I am? Where is that person I can count on? Where is that person's shoulder that I can cry on? Where is that person's ear that I can talk to? Why isn't that person's heart entrusted to me to hold on to? Where is that person's love?

Am I not intelligent enough?

Am I not talented enough?

Am I not loving enough?

Am I not caring enough?

Am I not passionate enough?

Am I not strong enough?

Am I not impressive enough?

Am I not deserving enough?

Am I not decisive enough?

Am I not entertaining enough?

Am I not spontaneous enough?

Am I not fun enough?

Am I not appealing enough?

Am I not desireable enough?

Am I not good enough?

Am I not laid back enough?

Am I not sexual enough?

Am I not amazing enough?

Am I not friendly enough?

Am I not wonderful enough?

Am I not cool enough?

Am I not reasonable enough?

Am I not daring enough?

Am I not close enough?

Am I not pretty enough?






Or am I just not enough?






---Joanna = crying =