yeah...haven't posted in forever...Just goes to show that this damned computer doesn't own my soul! >_<
I cried today at school.
In psychology, we watched a video about placebos...I refuse to go into detail about why it upset me so...but I couldn't contain myself...so after I left that class, I asked my Humanities teacher if I could sit in the hall...I needed to calm down...I desperately wanted a certain person to be in that stark hallway with me, to cry on his shoulder...but I had to cry on my own shoulder...because he never came.
The movie reminded me of Grandma.
....and every experience associated with her.
I miss her so much...and I regret not being there as much as I should have been. I regret taking the time I had with her for granted. I regret not being with her in her last hours when she needed me and my family most even if she didn't know it.
I can't see the computer screen.
There are too many tears for me to see what I am typing.
Just a blur.
I have a knot in my throat.
My lungs are burning my chest just as much as the tears are burning my face.
But it's just a blur.
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(my xanga post written a few minutes ago.)
Invader_Champloo! Community Member 
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