******** you, apo-trimiptramine. ********. You. Or ******** my body for being so screwy, maybe.
So my dad gives me one of his weirdo hardcore sleeping pills. According to his doctor, they're four times as effective as a valium. I'm tired of lying in bed until 2 (at the earliest), waking up again at 4, again at 7, and then finally dragging my sorry a** out of bed at 10 or 11. ******** tired of being nocturnal.
So he promises me, this'll help. "Just be sure you're already in bed when you take it, it hits like a ton of bricks".
Okay, good. That's what I need. It's quarter after eleven. I get in bed take my pill. Wait 20 minutes. Nada. Wait, my feet feel funny. No, nevermind. That's just my sciatica. Maybe if I read a bit. Yeah, that usually helps.
Finish my book. Okay, maybe this isn't working. Turn off my light, try to sleep again. Why isn't the damned pill doing anything? Maybe they lied to me. Maybe it's just a tiny pink baby Asprin. ********. Okay brain. Shut up. SHUT UP. JUST. SHUT. UP. But my friends. How are they? Is everyone okay? I wonder where the cat is. How come I don't have a job yet? Does anyone who I think is my friend really hate me? I bet a lot of people hate me. SHUT THE HELL UP.
Maybe if I relieve some tension in a rather unlady-like fashion. God damn, even this isn't working. For the first time in as long as I can remember, I can't even finish. ******** it. Curl up again, try to sleep.
Hey, look. It's ten after four. I guess I got some sleep. Thrash. Roll. ******** satin sheets. They never stay put. Fussfussfuss. There. Better. Maybe if I curl up on my stomach. My brain's at it again though. Rambling incoherently. Shuuuuut uuuup. I give up. I'll just lie here and ignore it. That'll teach it.
It's about 8:30 before I finally get to sleep again. And the phone rings at 11. ******** it. I need to piss anyways.
Maybe I should stuff a Jolly Rancher up my nose. The only thing that helps me sleep anymore is an injection of diphendyramine hydrochloride. They won't give it to me unless I'm having an allergic reaction.
 Moonblossom · Tue Jul 26, 2005 @ 04:32pm · 6 Comments |
