I made up my mind to leave the one place I've called home for a long time. So many of my friends have moved on... doing other things that make them happy. I'm glad for them... But part of me feels selfish to want to see them again. I guess it's because I'm so lonely and I have no purpose other than to watch others. I'm actually tired of watching others. Their lives are so blissful... nothing seems to bother most of them as long as they have their friends to talk to... It makes me wonder how long I've endured this disgusting display... Wait... I've never felt this way before. Why am I feeling so... Jealous? So... Bitter? My head has been foggy ever since the nightmares began. They seem to have no end to them. But all of them end with me in such a euphoric trance. What is happening to me? Am I losing it? I feel like I've lost so much and I'm afraid of what will happen if I choose to search for my friends in this world... I'd rather lock myself up in a cage for eternity than to hurt the ones I care about..... But....
Do they still care about.......... me...... Maybe I should keep away.... For everyone's sake...
G-Angel Izzy Community Member 
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