*hugs you* The way you wrote all that makes me feel so sad because I know what you mean. I have the same feelings that you convey in all those writings. And just to let you know, if you ever need to get something off your chest, you can always talk to me. I don't like it when my friends feel sad and lonely, because I now what it feels like. And I know that it just gets worse if you just hold it in. So if you EVER need to talk to somebody, just say my name.