This Friday isn't really going my way. So I get stressed out over planning when and where to make up three quizes that I missed during my sick leave (see "Sick Leave" wink and Yearbook deadline is tuesday and of course I'm not ready! So after school I took my friends plan that she told me yesterday: to just walk straight home, do homework, and just do something for myself. This entire week has been a downer, from the suicide at my school to my lengthy sickness. So I decided just to do something for myself, get caught up on my "me" time. So as of course I know that my crush (we'll call him Emmett) walks home like right away, so I stay after for like one minute until he passes me and THEN I decide to leave. My friend walks me out, and I pass him as I leave. I gave him a glance, but he wasn't looking then some people shuffle past and I go. Sometimes he doesn't walk the same way that I do, and lucky me this was one of those times. I had smiles at him in PE I think today, and I'm pretty sure he smiled back. So all the way walking home, I'm walking slow and listening really hard to see if I can hear hime behind me. I never hear him, and so I go home but don't do my homework. Instead, I go on the computer and just tink about a ton of crap to just clear my head a little bit at least. So soon I get a call from friends, asking if I can see Step Up 2 and sleep over later. I ask my parents, and I am unable to go to both ("It's been a hard week" wink . So too bad, I can't have another one of those great nights where you talk about everything with your best friends and get to let your feelings out. Not for me. Then I get a text from a friend. "Guess whose here". "Who??!!" "Emmett." "WHAT. WHAT WHAT WHAT WHAT?!" No reply. "GODDAMN ANSWER ME." No reply. So now I'm here thinking about what could've happened, started. And I'm stuck here. I can't see him, I can only just think about it. And it's totally killing me. I had a little breakdown. I wanted so bad to be there, just to see him. Just to smile at him. And I couldn't make it.
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