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Well, I got the six Harry Potter book. Pretty good so far. Stayed up all night reading it just because I felt like.Though I went to sleep about 5:50 and woke up around 10:30. hey, I'm not complaining.


*sigh* Still trying to get more money for different things, a better rod, vending license, better clothes. Going really slow. And I keep wondering just how many freakin fish do I have to collect to start trading with that freakin fisher man. I had over a hundred in total. What does a guy have to do to trade with him? Maybe I should stop going on gaia as often and stay on for a long time.

Geuss I feel kinda exasperated, don't know why. I'm also thinking of joining a guild. I'm thinking of either the writers guild or the Visual Arts: Yaoi/Yuri. If we can join more than one, geuss I'll join both.

Not to mention, somestuff is happening. No, I'm not gay or diseased. I mean with some people I know. I'm on vacation in Miami, and the day after I get back, it's time for school. My last year of high school. After this, I gotta rely on my own strengths, beliefs, and will. Damn that sounds corny and like a confesion. I geuss I always have that guilt feeling that I could have done something more. And there's that damn question that's been looming over my head for like an eternity.

Will I ever find my lover?

I feel like an idiot quarrelling over it so much, but I can't just pick up any girl I find attractive. I'm damn naive with love. I keep thinking when the right girl showes up, I'll know. But I know it doesn't work like, but I'm so fixated on it I can't shake it. I geuss my fantasy world is clashing with reality. I know I have to live in reality but I can't help and be enveloped in a world of fantasy. and when something actually comes from it and I'm reentering reality, sparks start flying.

well, thats it for now, I gotta jet. till next time