I know my ramblings may seem incoherant and disjointed at times, but I realized something about myself. I consume contiously, whether it be food, wate, liquid or something that I can take in. I never stop. I will eat untill i cannot eat to where it is painful, Generally I take as much as i can even if it causes me pain. I eat if I do not need to eat. Why? I think I have this part of me that wishes to take all I can from others who might be able to hurt me if they had what ever it is. I consume to deprive others. I have tried to stop, but I can't. Perhaps I eat just to know that I have destroyed something. Or perhaps it is this season that makes me eat alot so I can hibernate for winter? who honestly knows how the clockwork of my fiendish mind ticks. Maybe underneath this flesh and blood I am more machine then human? So much about me confuses me yet I must know too....................................................................................................................................................................................................................................
 Azalin · Sat Oct 23, 2004 @ 08:39am · 0 Comments |
