I dont know where to start...I guess all i can say is i ******** up badly. I hurt the one person that probably mattered the most to me. I feel so horrible, i have to wear a mask to cover up what i really feel like. The thing is, shes the one that always took my mask off cause i didnt need it anymore when i was with her. Right now i have the biggest mask ive ever had on.
Ive never seen more of a fake smile than the one on my face...not even towards my enemies. Why do i have it then? ...so people will leave me alone...so they all dont ask me whats wrong.
Over a year of talking to each other...getting so very close...i feel like ive destroyed it all in but one night. And because of it i want to die.
And now she'll probably be gone forever crying She is my best friend...and i dont know what im going to do if i lose her.
*sigh* I just hope she can forgive me... v.v
The night opens her lap
The child's name is loneliness
It is cold and motionless
I cry softly into time
I don't know what your name is
But I know that you exist
I know that sometime
someone will love me
He comes to me every night
No words are left to say
With his hands around my neck
I close my eyes and pass away
I don't know who he is
In my dreams he does exist
His passion is a kiss
And I can not resist
I wait here
Don't die before I do
I wait here
Don't die before I do
I don't know who you are
I know that you exist
Don't die
Sometimes love seems so far
I wait here
Your love I can't dismiss
I wait here
All the houses are covered in snow
And candle light in the windows
They lie there together
And I
I only wait for you
I wait here
Don't die before I do
I wait here
Don't die before I do
I don't know who you are
I know that you exist
Don't die
Sometimes love seems so far
I wait here
Your love I can't dismiss
Don't die before I do
"Stirb nicht vor mir (Don't die before I do)" - Rammstein
Please Hannah...dont die before i do cry Im SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO sorry!!!!! sad
 xCasaNovax · Sat Oct 13, 2007 @ 03:40pm · 6 Comments |
