... i've heard i'm a dying breed... ... a man who actually gives a damn about what a woman feels, wants, whatever. and if your reading this and haven't figured it out by now, yeah, i'm a guy. but you know... i've heard, countless times, that women would kill to be with a guy like me... ... so why is it when i get in a relation i think will go well... i get left... for a man whos a total jerk off who only cares about getting laid? Why? WHy why why WHY WHY WHY!?!?!?! WHy must this always happen to me? Was i made just to make women know what its like to be with a guy who gives two shits about them? Is that what makes them want to be with a total ******** p***k?? is that it?? I bet it is... i'm doomed to live a life of pain... thats gotta be it... ... well then, i ask you, reader... what should i do? Take my life? continue living the way i do now? Become what i hate, a total jerk off? or just tell women to ******** themselves and become gay? those seem to be my only options... i cant get an answer to my questions... why must i suffer? Do women really not give a damn about me? do they really just want pricks? ... that must be it... i... all i have to give to the world is my brain... the things stored inside that brew up day after pointless day... thats all... my love makes women yern to be with people who don't care... who will just use them... ... maybe i should stick around... and watch as the women who "live's i've changed" as many have said, are treated like scum... then watch them come back to me and apologize... while i suffer and kill myself because i couldn't be there for them? i... i'm so lost... i'm lost without mika... i'm lost without my lautern in the woods they label as life... ... i don't know what path of the many here to take...
 LabTech118 · Tue May 31, 2005 @ 08:05pm · 1 Comments |
