I've been skipping school and I've begun to steal things by habit again... It's not good. My ex-boyfriend used to be the one to stop me from doing anything like that. But, now that we're not together, I seem to have gone back to my old ways. I'm very ashamed of them, but I can't seem to stop. Yesterday, I skipped 1st period and got caught. I might not be able to go to Atlanta on my end-of-the-year band trip coming up on Thursday because of it now. My status in the eyes of many people who used to respect me and look up to me has been turned upside-down. It's a horrible feeling really... to be in trouble, to be lonely, and to have lost everyone's trust. I'm not sure where to go after this. I really want to talk to Scott about my problems because he was the one who always made me stop this behavior. We have been talking even less now lately and I can't help but feel as if he's drifting away. I can't stand the thought of that because he's really close to me. Just because we're not together in the way that I want doesn't mean that we have to completely seperate from each other. Oh yeah, and and I just so happen to be failing my AP US History class right now on top of all of that. I'm really messed up. I'm still feeling what I wrote in my last journal entry too. I'm really lost, really confused, and really alone right now. It's just that nobody seems to notice...
 [K!ng] · Wed Apr 27, 2005 @ 02:02am · 1 Comments |
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