SUMMER!!!!
Yeah, I had a really good week with my best friend.
And really... I dont mind her reading this. Anyways. I had a good week with her when she was at my house.
Now I'm at her house for a whole week which is awsome too because then I get a break from my hell hole home back in that damn druggy town.
So... here I am... at her house... bored. Shes with her boyfriend. Truthfully I hate it. I'm happy for her and all but... its not like I'm even there.
I was so out of the loop. I didnt exist. I'm happy that she is happy. More than happy. I'm just happy because shes happy... so yeah... I'm sitting here wondering 'why not me?' why didnt I get a good boyfriend.
Someone I could love, kiss... just be with. I want it so badly. I almost started crying when we were watching a movie together.
They were all lovey dovey and stuff. It almost broke my heart. I'm gonna grow up to be a lonely old woman who is still a freaking virgin.
It sucks... And if that dear friend of mine is reading this. I'm sorry that you are. These are my thoughts that I needed to get out.
I'm not upset or anything so dont feel bad... is you do... and just ignore that fact that I feel this way. It will be alittle while but I'll get someone.
I'm sure of it.
Possibly someone as wonderful as you have. Your lucky buddy!! I just hope I'll get just as lucky sometime soon. Anyone... as long as their face doesnt make me want to puke.^^
All I have to do is wait right?
Yeah, I had a really good week with my best friend.
And really... I dont mind her reading this. Anyways. I had a good week with her when she was at my house.
Now I'm at her house for a whole week which is awsome too because then I get a break from my hell hole home back in that damn druggy town.
So... here I am... at her house... bored. Shes with her boyfriend. Truthfully I hate it. I'm happy for her and all but... its not like I'm even there.
I was so out of the loop. I didnt exist. I'm happy that she is happy. More than happy. I'm just happy because shes happy... so yeah... I'm sitting here wondering 'why not me?' why didnt I get a good boyfriend.
Someone I could love, kiss... just be with. I want it so badly. I almost started crying when we were watching a movie together.
They were all lovey dovey and stuff. It almost broke my heart. I'm gonna grow up to be a lonely old woman who is still a freaking virgin.
It sucks... And if that dear friend of mine is reading this. I'm sorry that you are. These are my thoughts that I needed to get out.
I'm not upset or anything so dont feel bad... is you do... and just ignore that fact that I feel this way. It will be alittle while but I'll get someone.
I'm sure of it.
Possibly someone as wonderful as you have. Your lucky buddy!! I just hope I'll get just as lucky sometime soon. Anyone... as long as their face doesnt make me want to puke.^^
All I have to do is wait right?
