I feel so guilty. I wasn't there. I know I would have had a wonderful time if I would have gone. Oh well... I'll try to get over the guilt. All of my weekend plans are off. So now I'm going to be bored. I am so exhausted. I overdosed again, and I lied about it to my best friend. Now I'm a liar and a killer and a dreamer and worthless. Jobless, loveless, worthless me. The me who lies to his best friends... It was only once, but that's enough. No. It's too much. Far too much. And I'm sorry. I wanted to end all of this last night. I wanted to get away from it all. To stop the heartaches, the pains. Everything. I wanted to snuff out e v e r y l a s t d r o p of life that was left inside of me. No more pain...
No more pain...
siriustoast · Sun Apr 17, 2005 @ 03:06am · 0 Comments |