• I Only Looked Away

    A weight pressed firmly against my chest.
    A sin I must, I must confess.
    Regret, oh regret at my unfathomable mistake.
    So much, so much at stake.
    My own sanity is what I wage.

    At the bottom of it I wonder is it a stage.
    Pain striking fiercely against my heart.
    A choke of tears start a fire like a spark.
    Selfishness is why I hold myself in such low regard.

    Who am I, Who am I to judge that which lives in the dark.
    I wielded my own blade, committed my own crime.
    As he stood there screaming, screaming, but silent as a mime.
    He loved me, I loved him, but he’s gone now.

    I broke, I broke the only vow.
    I promised, I solemnly swore.
    I would love him for forever more.
    I didn’t, I broke him down.

    Ignoring him, hurting him is my frown.
    My own father passed away.
    I cry, I cry for forgiveness every day.
    For when he needed me I only looked to my own desire.

    And when he left that is when I noticed it was dire.