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I will not cry until the rain falls.
Mixing with my tears,
Hiding from my fears.
Concealing my weakness,
Cowering from darkness.
Shh... Don't make a sound.
Don't say a word.
All the things you said,
All the hurt you caused...
I want you gone,
Out of my life.
Because As I Lay Dying,
This is my wish.
So leave me be,
Don't cry for me.
You never loved me,
You didn't care.
Because in a world full of hate,
One girl will recieve her last dying wish.
Because hating...
It deteriorates your dreams,
Your hopes...
In this world full of pain and suffering,
A girl who wants to change it,
Is to shy,
To quiet to be heard.
That girl is me.
I am hushed by the incrowd,
I am pushed from society.
So listen to me,
Hear me out...
I am only saying this once.
The things you say or do will not hurt me.
I am my own person, I am original.
So what do you care what I look like,
How I talk,
What I do?
Does it really matter to you.
Because even if I hide away,
The rumors you would still say.
What if I died today?
Would you notice?
Would you pity me?
Does this really change anything?
Just because I am gone...
Well, I am glad to be gone.
Because when I think back to that day,
As I Lay Dying,
I remember how you thought of me,
What you said.
You thought your words would end me in suicide..
And even though they still think of it as suicide,
I didn't end myself.
Don't you still hear them say,
"Oh poor Emily Jones, why did she do it?"
Don't feel bad for me,
You wanted this, right?
I didn't want to die,
But am I better off?
Are you?
Oh that's right,
You want me to be there today
Just so you can hurt me more.
But I am gone,
And now that I am dead,
Soon, you shall be too.
Because that day,
As I Lay Dying,
I smiled.
I was, no, am grateful for you.
You made me grow strong.
Because each insult and punch
Made me a better person.
Because I walked away,
Not stood there and beat you too.
So thanks for everything.
You were behind that trigger,
But even though I am dead,
I died and I was still me.
So right now,
As I Lay Dying,
I smile at you.
And I can tell you're frustrated too.
I mean,
You wanted me to be sad,
Pained,
But you set me free.
So As I Lay Dying,
Part of you is dying too.
- by Death Is Her Wish |
- Poetry And Lyrics
- | Submitted on 04/21/2013 |
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- Title: As I Lay Dying
- Artist: Death Is Her Wish
- Description: A poem I wrote when I was in a really dark part of life. It's in the process of getting published :3 SO DON'T STEAL, It's already going through publishing. Oh, and by the way... My name is not Emily Jones.. I just thought it was a cute name and my name didn't quite go with it.
- Date: 04/21/2013
- Tags: dying poetry suicide free setfree
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