• Mom, I dont even know where it all began
    it doesnt matter now I'm just scared of how it all
    is gonna end.

    Mom I know I'm 20 and should be able to handle
    this on my own
    But when I shove my fingers down my throat
    Theres no other feeling that makes me feel so alone

    Mom please help I'm tired of crying
    but I'm affraid now because slowly
    now I'm dying.

    I'm affraid I'm going to die mom
    I lost all of my control,
    I didnt think it was a problem at first but
    now its taking a deathly toll.

    Mom please stop yelling at me about
    how much weight I've lost
    Believe me I'm scared too
    of the anorexic
    voice that torments me with a very scary cost.

    mom I never told you about the man
    who caused me pain
    He abused me as a child and
    just now I'm going insaine

    I took it out on myself Mom I
    dont mean to break your heart

    but this over whelming feeling
    is what emotionally set me apart.

    please understand that

    All this starving purging and ripping up my flesh
    its only a temporary way of escaping and starting over fresh

    its not your fault mom please dont feel so guilty
    you have a way to save me now, just listen and
    come help me.

    Please mom come and hold me
    like you did when I was little.

    I feel like an old woman mom
    and my hearts especially brittle

    I knwo when I say I love you mom it sounds
    like I hesitate
    but please believe I love you mom
    and come help me before its too late.