• After the lights go out
    We are left here to devour ourselves
    And each other
    We are now more rat than lover
    A feast fit for us and no one else
    There is no self-preservation for gluttons
    Only more fuel to consume
    More misery to make sweet between grinding teeth
    The image is grainy
    The ending is meet
    The beginning is meat
    We’ve waited so long for approval, and now we can eat
    Let’s start with the feet
    Make those monsters squirm
    Give them something to cry about
    To salivate over
    Savor everything.
    Remember nothing.
    Feel the impossibly small proteins snap like the bones
    Everything’s going the same way.
    All breaking.
    All dissolving.
    All encompassing smorgasbord of two idiots deceived
    Take a shot for each lie we believed
    About where we’d be by now
    Take a look at this circus
    It’s barren now
    Take a look at these patrons
    They’re barren now
    It’s hard to distinguish ourselves from the pile
    The bile has bonded us all together
    And now we’re heavier than how we began
    We hold the weight of broken promises,
    Missed dates and collapsed stars
    Our eyes are the size of when a universe collides with another
    And explodes like it has no place to go
    Because it doesn’t.
    We are the sum of everything our last life wasn’t.
    Be proud of what we’ve designed, at least
    Consider it architecture
    All the lights around the Ferris Wheel spell out our prefecture
    We are just niggers and Dalits
    The lowest end of the proletariat.
    Heretics praying to Saint Judas Iscariot
    Now get that pig!
    Kill all the spiders!
    Feed the latter to the first
    Forget how you’re cursed
    Brand yourself with the song you wrote about your last day on earth
    Reclaim the name you were given before birth
    You are everything you promised you’d never be
    The spitting image of the imagination the belongs to your mother
    An exact replica of the ideals your father upheld
    Exhale the final farewells our past friends yelled as they lowered us down here
    Smile like a cockroach
    A pest
    And respect the rest of these bodies for the trouble they went through
    They did their best to be what we did our best to avoid
    Now, since we’re left in this void
    Take the cobwebs that smother us
    Make smooth bulletproof garments to cover us
    We need to stay dry
    We need to keep moving
    This place is just a great circle
    So what are we doing?
    Think back to when you’d say we’d be remembered one day
    Because we are beyond forgotten
    We were never there to begin with
    The hallucination of a delusion of a figment of some sick b*****d’s imagination
    I am so hungry for recognition
    For our father’s touch
    Just a hint of acknowledgment that he remembers the things we did to be punished
    Besides this pit made to fit our fractured entireties
    Make it known that you’re tired of these foul insects
    Pretend that they will respect your wishes
    Defend yourself from those we fragmented infinity with
    Arch your back and hiss like the vermin we always have been
    Let those little hairs raise high
    Keep crawling
    Fear the rain from those rivers above us
    Keep crawling
    Bare your teeth, be vulgar
    Move left
    Embrace the cycle
    Move left
    Don’t stop.
    Punish them
    Make them squeal
    Punish them
    Accept your place in this
    Keep crawling
    Break your talons off in the screaming dirt
    Keep crawling
    The smell of cooking blood drifts over us
    We reek of violence and flattery floating downward
    The scraps of our transformations trailing behind us like ghostly chains
    The scrapes of our transgressions eating away at us
    like we ate away at everyone else
    For the love of… wait…
    That sentence once rolled off my tongue
    Now it chokes me
    Smokes and smolders within me
    Like the realization that we are prodigies
    Boiled by our ambition and seared by hypocrisy
    We were something once G-…Dammit!
    I still can’t say it
    Fine
    It’s not that important
    We need food
    We need to become just a little more human
    So keep crawling
    Grab hold of whatever flesh you can
    Keep crawling
    Do what you have to to cope just…
    Keep crawling.