• How many years till the Reckoning?

    When hope fades, and gaunt death beckoning,

    A time that religion is tested, and faith crushed,

    When anarchy reigns, and mothers sceams are shushed.



    How many months till I crack from strain?

    Will I be relieved of my pain, or be doomed to disdain?

    When I'm not drwning in sorrow, it's all numb,

    So the real question is, will I succeed or succumb.



    How many weeks till I lose her?

    With hungry eyes, curious hands, and allure,

    Eventually She'll leave, leaving a vacuum in my chest,

    I'm thinking of her unendingly, I sleep but never rest.



    How many days till I can't forget?

    Forgotten memories surface, the rising sunset,

    When my world turns inside outside in,

    My heart explodes and my lungs drown in gin.



    How many hours till I lay down to sleep?

    To experience horrors and pits infinitely deep?

    Where I fight my own mind for sanity,

    My fate ever shifting, virtue or vanity.



    How many minutes till my mood swings?

    Anger of the mocked, Joy of the victor, Sorrow that cripple kings,

    The only time I feel at peace is when I don't feel,

    I never know if anything in me is a facade or real.



    How many seconds till you realize I'm all wrong?

    That all it takes to change the world is a song?

    I don't know. All I need to know is How Long.