• I can only now think back,
    I'm constantly reminded of the
    days we spent together- the
    times we had, the
    conversations we spoke.
    I regret thinking, I regret
    experience all that we had.
    All I do is miss it...
    Miss all those times
    you made me smile-
    your smile...
    the way your eyes shone
    every time you looked at me,
    it me smile. It made my heart
    flutter.
    You made that hellish life stop,
    fade, disappear, dissipate..
    I was with you. Only you.
    That's all I ever wanted..
    To just be with you.
    What we had..I guess weren't...?
    All the memories burn my mind,
    the back of my eyelids.
    It hurts!!
    Your name alone stops my breath,
    adds pace to my heart, and tears my down
    my cheeks.
    I've tried forgetting you..
    Impossible.
    I don't want to...but I want to..
    What was it for?
    Did you lie to me? Did we mean
    a thing to you?
    Questions..questions...
    all I want is your answers.
    I demand to resolve the conflict
    within my heart.
    I want the pain to stop!
    You're not the only one who wants to
    live.
    I can't, I don't..I don't go a day
    without thinking of you.
    I see your face in my dreams, my nightmares,
    my work...
    I miss your voice, your touch, everything
    about you.
    What we had, to me.. it was
    something special.
    So monumentally wonderful to
    me, I want it back.
    I want my life back, a life with you.
    ...I love you, so damn much...
    It hurts to know that I'm not
    with you..
    it hurts to know, it hurts so damn
    Bad.