• Why do I always feel this.
    Whenever I hear her name, I remember.
    What I once had and held so dearly,
    Stupidly thinking it would last forever.
    But my imagination always runs wild.
    It leads me into false hope.
    I don’t get why I fall for it every time.

    And when I see her face I cry.
    When I see her name, I die.
    Her old words from yesterday tear at me so painfully.
    Sometimes, I still see her in my dreams.
    Speaking to me with that sweet smile.
    But it always turns to a nightmare.
    I remember when she left, how I felt.

    They say dreams can’t hurt you.
    But they’re wrong, I awake broken constantly.
    Shattered my soul, bled my eyes..
    The pieces of my mind break my skin.
    I cry out for her to return, but she still walks away.
    I wish for the dream to change, but it won’t.
    For the dream isn’t a dream, but reality.
    I live it in my mind, tortured by her visage.

    And so I sit, thinking of where I went wrong.
    What if she were still here..
    But I know my thoughts are pointless.
    For nothing I dream can ever become reality.
    But my persistence is a burden.
    For I’ve wasted many nights with her ghost.
    Lying awake, reaching out for the illusion before me.
    It fades when I get too close, just as she did in reality.

    I’ve dreamt for far too long.
    Thinking she’ll come back.
    I thought I moved on, but I can’t deny it.
    She still holds power in my mind, and in my heart.
    I want to be rid of her forever but I know..
    I know, I could never handle it.
    Because I sit here wishing for her.
    Calling out her name desperately..
    Waiting for her touch.