• I am haunted by memories of a friend and lover left in haste. Memories come and goes hour after hour assaulting me over and over some remaining to bring a longing so deep that it shakes me to my very core. When the haunting memories pass it is with such a deep sorrow that I let them go for my friend and lover of old I have let go. His touch was much, like a torch lit ablaze along the maze of my skin but with a feather's grace that amazing. His gaze that dazes is of a cool ocean but stormy with a fierce passion. His strength made of elemental steel from the earth that births him. His smiles a mile wide to make me die for inside is bright like that of a full moon’s ride high upon the night. His passion unmatched in this here earthly realm, like a wild fire all consuming and leaving a devastating all penetrating impact. He damned and commanded my body like no other has. Who can ever dare to compare to my friend who tended and mended part of my heart. Will there never ever be one to fill me so completely and make me want to hold like my friend and lover of old. One to make me want to give all and fall. Bring joy like in the spring that left me cold and alone like in the winter's past like my friend and lover of old did. I was just a flower bud until his touch opened me up then I blossomed with his sweet gentle touch into a rare flower of passion and love who begun to believe in her friend, lover and master's touch, was it a trick of lust or true love, I know not from which it was but what had begun had done changed me so that I fell hard. I begun to seek, take and make what memories I could of my friend, lover and master of my body of old. Slowly building memories finding and binding my heart for this was meant to part like in the cards I did not care to share. I now yearn for I did not learn all I wanted of my friend, lover and the master of my body of old who I never could hold. Even in complete silence I was complete by his side. There was so much I ached to take to give to share. Now I seek the night when the lights go out and I dance off to dream land where once again I am his. I read the cards past, present and what lies ahead in the future but like I know it is just like Karma, Destiny or the Fates to change their minds or for human design to interfere with my affairs