• Quitting something that you've done for a long time isn't easy.
    I can't stay away from it.....no. You. For even three days.
    It feels like I have no control,
    I'm going crazy.
    I want what I know I shouldn't have.
    Voices around me tell me to stop...
    But I can't.
    I could blame it....no....You. But I know I'm the reason.
    You....it..no...YOU keep calling me back.
    I love this addiction, the high, the mind rush.
    Everytime I go back it feels like that sensation gets better and better.
    And it does......for that moment.
    Then I deal with the inner tormoil within my soul.
    The guilt, the shame, the depression.
    All three.
    I need help but don't seek it......
    or is it that I don't accept it?
    This is the most addicting drug there is.....
    And I can't stop no matter how much I try.