• I close my eyes, a tear falls of sorrowful remembrance. Your taste still lingers on my lips, but I wish that it would just disappear, just like how every memory of somehow happiness dissolved into nonexistence. The warmth you left behind is so frighteningly wonderful as it holds me by the throat. I can’t breathe.
    Why? Why does this have to stay? You, I don’t want, don’t need you, I keep trying to convince myself. Yet the thought of you being a distant memory and nothing more kills me inside. I breakdown, where am I? My heart shatters into a million pieces, and as I think of you the pieces get brutally stepped on, my vulnerable consciousness flutters like a frail bird, disappearing into nothingness, submerging into lost waters, the blackness enveloping my life.
    Away, away, away from here, from the pain. The consoling of your warmth, lingers here, as I fight to push it away, I get weaker. Death seems my only priority now, but I avoid the thought uselessly. I search desperately for a place to be alone, a sanctuary of unforgiving peace. My hands hide my face, and yet all the same I stare solemnly at my fingers and the gaps where yours fit perfectly.
    I scream, yet as unknown as it seems to me I know perfectly well that I am not heard, ever heard, never will be heard. Just another failed attempt to be caught with comforting lies, yet they somehow cause me to fall into a deeper desire for me to be held in your strong arms. Hold me there, my tower, my love, my stronghold, my life, my loss, my need, my….
    I open my bloodshot eyes, tears are shed. I choke for air. I stand up, I know I am at a loss, but the battle has just begun. I stagger away, walking over the delicate remains of my tattered heart.