• I try so hard
    and what I reap
    I don't believe.
    I'm not sure
    if it's real or not
    and now I wonder,
    what I've sewn,
    is it truly what I reap?
    Or is it nothing more
    than a mere illusion?
    wanting to believe,
    wanting to burn it.
    So many questions
    and too many
    complications.
    Just to end it all,
    try and restart.
    A different batch,
    a different field .
    Still, I'm not sure.
    what I've sewn
    and what I'm reaping
    is it what I want?
    This possible illusion
    that may be real.