• From day one
    I knew all I should ever do is run
    From you, but from there I was done
    Cast to the streets, I wouldn't survive
    So I stuck with it and now I regret my life
    Where the best I get is a pat on the back
    Somewhere in between, a threat of attack
    I've heard people complain of all their s**t
    I feel for them, I know how it is in that skit
    All you can do is suffer and submit
    And it's hard not to quit
    But I never pulled the trigger myself
    I'm sure you can do it yourself
    When you struggle just to be fed
    And you know you'd rather be dead
    As you watch your family be torn apart
    Mothers die, fathers complain, and s**t starts
    You might as well just tear out your heart
    And depart, leave it all behind
    All the pain and hate, just unwind
    Sit back and relax for one time
    Then see the rest of the world in grime
    The streets are filled with death and crime
    You just go back home

    The next day
    Your home's just an area of gray
    It's hard not to feel betrayed
    When there's no food, no water, no money left
    You wonder who committed the theft
    Dad says that there's some s**t he needs
    To take care of, yet the next night
    He's talking 'bout where he stashes his weed
    Everything's coming to light
    When you realize that your life's a lie
    Your ******** family, you want no ties
    Your own siblings aren't even related to you
    But you always thought so anyways
    Yet now you can't tell who from who
    This is how you live day by day
    With a single question on your head
    Pull it or not, you're already dead
    Starve again for the day
    Cause your dad can't take care of you
    Yet I know some who live this way
    Every damn second of their lives
    And I still don't know what to do
    When every ******** question goes by
    No one has the nerve to tell you the truth
    They blame it on your youth
    Welcome home.

    The day afterward
    They found his body, the boy ignored
    Locked in his room with a 9mm in his hand
    With the barrel placed where it was planned
    Right against his head, the blood splattered on the wall
    No one could ever see that fall
    They didn't see it coming, yet everyday
    He'd complain and b***h in every way
    And ask for change just to get by
    No one dared to ask why
    They just figured he left his lunch again
    For the tenth time that month, then
    He stopped coming altogether
    They said he was under the weather
    But I knew better
    I, started thinking again, when the news came in
    And everyone found out 'bout his suicidal grin
    All the tears that were shed
    About this boy in his bed
    And the bullet through his brain
    And the way he was slain
    I realized that death wasn't ready for me
    And so I continued to be
    Even through the hard times and all the s**t
    But I try not to remember it
    And even at home, I know,
    That I will never submit