• I'm not sure when it happened
    when it really hit me you were gone
    for up until that instant
    I was ignorant and strong

    It happened out of nowhere
    it stole the laughter from my face
    far from happiness, with a heavy heart
    poured tears down in it's place

    i had no rest that day
    nor any sleep that night
    my eyes full of ever lasting tears
    as I held myself so tight

    Who would i talk to
    Who would understand
    I couldn't believe this had happened
    It’s not according to what I’d planned

    It’s taken so much work
    To fill that emptiness in my heart
    But sometimes pain comes breaking through
    From a single un-mended part

    It breaks past every barrier
    That I’ve strategically made
    And again steals that laughter
    And all light inside me fades

    I’d try to forget you
    But that’s not what I want
    So I let the pain form inside come out
    As it weakens me and taunts

    When it finally goes away
    I erase you from my mind
    And push through my life so fast
    There’s no time to rewind

    So every once and a while I remember
    That you have gone away
    And left me hear alone
    And here with out you I stay

    Every once and a while in December
    The lights go out and I forget to sing
    Once in a while in my summer
    Smiles leave me as pain comes in

    Every once and a while on your birthday
    I shut everything out and don’t let anyone in
    Once and a while for the entire year
    I’m robbed of my laughter and missing you again
    ©2008