• If I were to die,
    I would have died with no one to care...
    This intricate world,
    filled with people make me wonder.
    how shall I fill within the dephths of my heart with the filling plunder?
    Why is it that I am so dark?
    I try try try...
    then I wish to die.
    The more I try living, I'm living a lie.

    I try to Scream but nothing comes out, You all ignore me as you see.
    I hope you will end up paying twice the fee.
    If I were dieing you wouldnt even flee.
    you'd stand there and watch and smile,
    you wouldn't say a word nor would you dial.
    9-11 whats your emergency?
    thats a lie!
    you would leave me in a heart beat.
    then finally Death would be my sweet treat.
    I wake up to no one. the tourture and pain.
    I had died. your not to worry, my blood shalt not stain.
    for I had been slain.
    I cryed for you, you had done nothing!
    knowing you were there! YOU DID NOTHING!

    The hate and my heart rate beat as one.
    no one in this relation ship had lost nor won.
    I thought I'd had gotten a tun,
    but no one came for me during the moon nor the sun.

    I had died but also had rised.
    I had met my demise.
    now YOU have let me to rise.

    No more heart.
    no more fresh starts.
    I have no trust.
    I only have lust.
    you used to be my must...
    you used to have my trust!
    you had broken me and all my trust.
    I shall break you.
    as you can see,
    you were not there for me.

    I tryed to restart,
    but you broke my heart!
    As I DIE DIE DIE,
    you made it as if I were one big lie.
    though in fact The most of you passed me by....
    No, one bothered this time.
    no one stayed and evey one just passed me by...
    as I die.
    I dont see those eyes.
    All I see is my own face and all the lies.
    many, upon many, people just passed me bye.
    No one had stoped to see what had happened.
    Though in fact those people were all lies.
    I had died yet again.
    Why can't I decend?

    I died twice,
    though I was sweet and nice.
    will nothing suffice?
    Im nothing but a dammed SACRIFICE!

    NICE, NICE, NICE!
    Ughhh, I make me sick.
    but I can't be evil nor slick.
    I can be mean but that wont do.
    The sadness in my heart.
    I'd give it for free to the dark.
    For if I become shallow and heartless,
    Then my feelings I'd be able to harness.
    I want revenge.

    Give me that and I'll be happy.
    The deaths of the ones whom gave me my own demise.
    The ones who didn't allow me to rise!
    I hate you!
    and yet I love you!
    you encouraged me to hate again.
    I hate you most of all.
    short, fat, or tall!
    Deep down your real small.

    I kill you once my inner demon comes out!
    This time Ill let out a glorified shout.
    A scream from the pain, and all the times I were slain.
    Just to kill you would finally be my will.
    I can't wait for that day to come.
    My own day of praise.
    My own self to raise.
    I will finally be able to be the real me....

    A beautiful beast, whom will love to hate.