• SUPERNATUALLY INSANE #III

    Number I
    Destroy from within
    There is a feeling inside me that builds and builds growing larger each time it's taunted and rovaoked. An anger that once consumed me, but now has been held abck, restrained even frol some time now. Slowly gradually adding more and more reason to break free and consumed me once more. I've had enough, this is the last straw. The balance in the center that keeps my rage at bay has been unstoppable, altered and for the worse, a shadow where my heart once was, not just any shadow, a shadow that is something, more then just a shadow. It has texture, feeling, amd is full of, of hatred and anger.

    Number II
    He loves me, he loves me not.
    T claim you love another, is to make a commitment, a promise to not love nor care for another on the same manner... To be indecisive, debating between another and the guy you calim to love, is like taking a razor blade and slitting their throat... Making then think they're not exactly what you want, the pain and torment it causes the other to experience is something that should never be wished on someone... Leads to thoughts of pain and despair, being alone forever, similar to the picking a peatl off a flowre one at atime, reciting he loves me, he loves me not. HEARTACHE THAT NO GIRL SHOULD HAVE TO ENDURE!

    Number III
    Boy and girl
    A boy and a girl,
    the best of friends.
    From elementary to high school
    from beginning to end.

    Through all those years
    their friendship grew.
    They both felt the same,
    but neither knew.

    Each waking moment
    since the day they met.
    They both loved each other
    sunrise to sunset.

    He was all she had
    in her terrible life.
    He was the one
    who kept her from her knife.

    She was his angel,
    she made him smile.
    Though life threw him curves,
    she made it all worth while.

    Then one day
    things went terribly wrong.
    The next few weeks
    were like a very sad song.

    He made her jealous
    on purpose he tried.
    When the girl asked, "Do you love her?"
    on purpose he lied.

    He played with jealousy
    like it was a game.
    Little did he know
    Things would never be the same.

    His plan was working
    but he had no clue.
    How wrong things would go,
    the damage he would do.

    One night she broke down,
    feeling very alone.
    Just her and the blade,
    no one else home.

    She dialed his number,
    he answered, "Hello"
    She told him she loved him
    and hung up the phone.

    He raced to her house
    just a minute too late.
    Found her lying in blood,
    her heart had no rate.

    Beside her was a note,
    in it her confession.
    Her love for this boy,
    her only obsession.

    As he read the note,
    he knelt down and cried.
    Grabbed her knife,
    that night they both died.

    She was found in his arms,
    both of them dead.
    Under her note
    his handwriting said:

    "I loved her so,
    she never knew.
    All this time
    I loved her too."

    Number IV
    Right here where I lay
    Looking up at the bright blue sky
    My vision clears as a tear leaves my eye

    Just laying here thinking, 1,000 thoughts in my head
    I want to get up but I stay here instead

    My mind feels heavy and so does my chest
    You've broken my heart, just like all the rest

    I thought you were different but I was so wrong
    You set up the games while I played along

    Now I'm so hurt inside
    Maybe I'll just choose to die

    Maybe I'll slit my wrists right here
    I blink again, a silent tear
    In my mind I know I shouldn't cry
    But still I do and here I lie

    Staring up, wondering where we went wrong
    How could you break me, I thought I was strong

    My body feels cold now, more clouds float by
    My breath has slowed, I don't want to try
    I don't want to stop what I've already done
    I've just finished your work, you've probably won
    You've broken my spirit, my heart, my soul
    And now I'm dying and no one knows

    I did it myself but I hope they blame you
    Don't tell them there was nothing you could do
    Don't say I was unhappy, "She's in a better place now."
    Cause you did this to me and I know someday, somehow
    Someone will do to you what you did to me
    And they'll break your heart, you wait and see

    Maybe you'll know why I acted that way
    Why I was so "bitchy" and cried everyday
    The reason I yelled and got all upset
    The things I knew but inside I kept

    After she hurts you and breaks your heart
    The pain you feel will be a start
    But it won't even compare to what you did to me
    And now there's no way to make you see
    You could have saved me, you should know not its true
    Its all the little things you needed to do

    You couls have told me how you felt
    Tried a little harder to make my heart melt
    Or surprised me with something I didn't expect
    You should have shown me a little respect


    Instead of yelling at me, making me number two
    You could have saved me from what I chose to do

    You didn't even care that you were killing me inside
    I couldn't take it anymore and so here I lie

    It hurts now to breathe, every breath is like work
    I think to myself, "I'll show this jerk,
    When everyone blames him for me being dead
    He wont get to laugh, but cry instead."

    You probably wont but maybe you will
    The sky is darkening, I'm lying so still
    My arms and legs are frozen, I can't move at all
    A tiny breeze starts blowing, an indication of fall

    My mind wanders to my family, I should have said goodbye
    But it wasn't their fault that today I chose to die
    I know it will hurt them a lot to see me go
    But I've just got things on my mind that they can never know

    I think it's over now, I cannot hear my breath
    My heart is not beating, no movement in my chest

    I just hope that you tell them what you did to me
    Let them know the kind of guy you are, the way it used to be

    Don't leave out the part where I was a month and a half late
    And you said it was just too much to have apon your plate
    So instead of being happy, you said to go to hell
    You beat me in your bedroom, I kicked and screamed and yelled
    No one else was home, which made you think it was okay
    Tell them all the reasons why I'm lying here today

    There's no way that I could have done it all alone
    No baby should be born into a broken home
    I told you that we would figure out how to make it work
    But you just kept on yelling and acting like a jerk
    I said we could abort it, but that just made you mad
    You hated my suggestions, you said that they were bad

    So now it's all over, we don't have to worry about it anymore
    My heart feels so free, it's no lobger sore
    No you don't scare me, I'm just not afraid
    Because I am safe here, right where I lay.

    Number V
    Numbing Sensation
    broken promises

    broken lies

    all torn up

    and thrown aside

    she cant feel anything

    she is numb

    she no longer cares

    what she has become

    she acts strong

    she laughs and smiles

    but her act is slowly fading

    her heart is going on trials

    this lost girl

    this lonly soul

    cant go on

    life takes its toll

    she is giving up

    her hand is on the gun

    what will become of this girl

    whos' life has just begun