• The night’s sky never lets me go
    I am under its control
    Keeping me in an endless trance
    Lost in the land of twilight
    I cannot sleep

    Even pleasantries like dreams
    Are now distant memories
    For I am chained
    To a never-ending nightmare
    Its unrelenting grip on my heart
    Beats till the wake of dawn

    A pool of red…
    A blade next to a bloody throat…
    Cold hands next to a torn letter…

    Cold blood
    Pulsing through my veins
    Beads of sweat lining my brows
    As I lie awake
    From yet another nightmare

    I let out a soft whimper
    Tears blur out my sight
    Yet again
    As I remember that day…
    Just a little too well.

    A day like any other…
    Hi’s and Hello’s exchanged
    Like they were nothing
    I’d sit in the far end of the class admiring you from afar you seemed different since that morning…
    I felt something was up
    I wanted to walk up to you
    And ask you, “What’s wrong?”
    But I was too stupid, saying,
    “… I’ll ask him tomorrow…”
    Too worried if it was too early to do so
    But how was I to know
    That was the only thing that I could’ve done just to keep him alive…

    Your parents just got divorced…
    Your sister just died overseas…
    You now lived alone in that big house of yours…

    You were tired…
    Tired of your life
    And of all the lies that transpired
    Between you and everyone else

    You kept the blade in your pocket
    All day long…
    Just waiting for someone to walk up to you and say that you were important
    That you had a reason to live…
    A person who would actually say:
    “I don’t want you to disappear,
    coz’ I’ll be sad”
    I should’ve been that person…

    Too bad…
    Too late…
    You’re dead
    My love’s gone to waste

    At exactly 5:45 pm…
    After classes had long ended
    I now stood in front of your bloody corpse
    A pool of red…
    A blade next to a bloody throat…
    Cold hands next to a torn letter…
    ‘I don’t have any reason to live.’
    I fell to my knees and started to cry…
    Holding that note in my hands…
    Too bad…
    Too late…
    You’re dead
    My love’s gone to waste

    It was then that I realized
    How little I knew about you
    I didn’t know you felt alone
    I didn’t know your friends never noticed that small difference in you that day
    If only I walked up to you…

    What ended with a blade would have ended with a smile…

    I stood through your whole funeral
    My tears fell like rain that day
    Guilt ate away at my heart
    I could’ve prevented this…
    But why didn’t I?...

    Now I lie awake at night since that day
    The night’s sky never lets me go
    I am under its control
    Keeping me in an endless trance
    Lost in the land of twilight
    I cannot sleep

    Even pleasantries like dreams
    Are now distant memories
    For I am chained
    To a never-ending nightmare
    Its unrelenting grip on my heart
    Beats till the wake of dawn

    Cold blood
    Pulsing through my veins
    Beads of sweat lining my brows
    As I lie awake
    From yet another nightmare


    A pool of red…
    A blade next to a bloody throat…
    Cold hands next to a torn letter…

    The same letter I now hold in the deepest memories of my broken heart…