• Honestly i sat here and contemplated this
    i had the pills in hand
    waited
    why i didnt
    i dont know

    all i know is im sick
    sick of you and your lies
    your messing up
    my messed up life

    i want to leave,
    i truly do
    but when i try
    you trap me
    you encase me in a hateful bond
    can i blame you?

    let me think
    your at fault
    i loathe you
    you messed with me for the last time
    get out
    i dont need you anymore

    you have never done anything
    for me
    you (f word) me up
    now im here
    alone , with no
    one

    they blame me,
    but i blame you

    im in love with cant
    cant and i like to get (fd up) up
    i cant do this, i cant do that
    thats all i hear of you
    you have no faith in me
    you never believed
    you laughed at my dreams
    what i wanted to be

    what a great loveing parent you are
    you know what though?
    i can live with this scar
    you gave it to me
    but can you live with
    yourself
    for doing this?

    i may still
    im quite unsure
    the next few days
    whats to tell
    will i be in heaven?
    or is it straight to hell

    how can i go to hell
    im in it
    im so distraught its sick
    i cant figure it out
    why?
    why mom?
    do you like hurting me?
    i guess all ill ever be is a (female dog)
    in you eyes anyway

    thank you mom
    i love you
    all youve ever given me
    was a reason to live?
    but when you take that away
    that reason
    this is what you get