• I cannot stop crying, my tears flow like blood down my cheeks,
    Eyes turned into slits like wounds opened by a serrated edge,
    Pale beyond the very definition, shaking as if rattled by great waves of wind,
    Battling things beyond all comprehension, beyond everything, I battle them over and over again...

    I wish someone could take one look and understand everything that I'm feeling,
    It seems as if no one truly understands, my desperation seeps out through every pore
    As I struggle to contain the great explosion that is building within me.

    Hands fisted at my sides, damp with sweat, knuckles bright white as I clench them ever tighter,
    Everything is at its breaking point, now more than ever I need peace,
    Now more than ever I long for comatose slumber.

    Do not wake me if I start to cry out, I prefer the nightmares in my sleep to the nightmares of reality,
    In sleep I gain lucidity and have the essential understanding that eventually I will wake up
    While in life there's never a possibility to just wake up, it's not that easy to erase real-life nightmares as they stalk you relentlessly...

    Shadows cavort back and forth in my field of vision, they're always unidentifiable,
    Always waiting for the right moment to strike, when you're weak and they take advantage,
    Silence seems like a friend but like any worthless friend it kills part of your spirit,
    Your true friend is in the nuances of words spoken to the ear of Justice...

    Lay my tarot cards down...

    Do I trust them? Will death be revealed upon every card face?
    What of the hanged man? He hangs as I do, at peace to be hanging,
    The tower? I plunge...
    Swords stab, cups filled with poison, wands heavy shattering skull, pentacles ever twirling out the darkness of the human mind...

    Protect me now in my moments of darkness,
    Protect me now in my moments of despair,
    Protect me...