Hidden Self Destruction

• Artist: tksunshine93
• Description: I wrote this recently when I finally realized that I need help with a certain.......problem......
• Date: 12/15/2008
• Tags: hidden self destruction help

At first
It was just an option
Now
There's no other way
I've lost control
Have become weak
The monster in my mind
Won't let me go
Pressured to be better
To be like the perfection
I constantly see
Why isn't that me
I've tortured myself
For so long
But I'm not perfect
I'm sick
Slowly killing myself
I want to stop
But I can't
The voice in my mind
Is too taunting
Too strong
I know what I do is wrong
But I can't quit
Not now
And you
You have never suspected
Never thought
I could do this
Would do this
My strong charade
Made it so you couldn't see
All the hurts
Inflicted by me
I have you believing
That I'm the rock
That will never crumble
But it's only an illusion
That I put up every day
Now
Now I'm scared
I've taken it too far
Someone please help
For I can no longer
Help myself
Help me
Before I'm lost
To my needs
To my wants
To all the impossibilities
Help me
Before I can no longer
Be pulled from the abyss

Comments

[Cheeky Snowflake]

I would enjoy reading it more if you'd have refined it, perhaps a more playful way of choosing synonyms for one, to express the feelings that you hold.

[amythyst crystal]

AW SIS...............please tell me what you need help with I will try anything and you get 5/5 but really whats wrong????