• I've met you in elementary school. You were one of my best friends that I have ever gotten. When I'm in trouble, you help me. When you're in trouble, I help you... because that's what friends are for, we help each other, respect each other, and be honest with each other. But the second I laid my eyes on you on the day we met, for the first time on earth, I felt something tingle... something special inside of me... I felt as if we had this special bond or connection... I felt as if time has stopped and we were the only two out of millions and billions of life on EARTH... to have not been frozen in time... I felt as if by that moment, my destiny has been chosen for me... the person that I am looking directly at... the person that has been my friend for years... the person that is looking directly back at me... that person... is Claudia...

    I thought she was the most beautiful living being in the universe... Her eyes are as black as liquorish (candy)... her hair as refreshing as the smell of nature as it was before civilization ever began... hands as smooth as silk... lips as warm the sun... and her soul... as pure... as divine light. When I told you I loved you with all of my heart... you took it as if I were the one for you... we never really went out for real... but you have always told me that you loved me... and I have told you that I loved you... It was then when I felt that the love between us... was fading away into the shadows...

    On January 31st, 2006... on my 12th birthday... You told me by MSN... that you only think of me as your big brother... not your lover/soul mate/man... only a big brother... I was hurt by the fact that the love have faded so much... enough to alienate a persons' relationship with another and destroy it... It really hurts...

    At least I still have love from Claudia... a sibling type of love... this kind of love is better than no love... It's not a lover kind of love... not the "I will get a chance with her" love... but at least the sibling type of love. When there is love... there is faith in life... faith in whether or not you would make it in life... but I know I have faith... because I have love... heart