• i know longer know how to word
    these feelings and all this hurt
    i gave you my everything, my trust you betrayed it
    you had to go and make it all so complicated

    and now i'm like you
    not knowing what it is i want
    is it you? that i love
    or could it be a wishful thought?

    you'd have thought i'd learned by now
    how not to believe in lying vows
    but still i put myself thought so much pain
    because i feel that love is mine again

    look where i've gotten
    nowhere, stuck at the beginning, broken, rotten
    getting only worse and worse
    the pain goes deeper to wear it hurts the most

    i look at your picture, and i remember
    you're so beautiful, that time in decemeber
    our first weekend together
    you loved me so much, needed me, i thought forever

    i hoped forever
    i wanted forever
    i needed forever
    what a crazy endeavour

    no time at all brought forth so much emotion
    i swear that you must have used some sort of love potion
    i have not a clue how, but i was and am under your spell
    a secret type of magic, from heaven or from hell?

    i'm at wits end trying to pry you from my head
    so little thought to get you in, so much effort to get you out
    but is that what i really desire?
    is it for the best? what i require?

    you were perfect... are, according to me
    mistakes and flaws so stunning to see
    and now i can't see anything through my tears
    you've become all my most paranoid fears

    and your warm demeanor i cant even hold
    cant do those things that you once told
    i think of you and my thoughts get choked
    all those wonderful things that you once spoke

    now weak and fragile i weep broken
    alas, its all my fault for my heart was not stolen
    i gave it away willingly hoping only for the same
    instead i got a toy one that cause true pain

    although not all pain, there were happy moments
    among the rest, just hard to recall when your heart lays open
    i dont want to let go but i feel that i must
    i want to have hope, when what i need is trust

    you cannot possibly care, right? oh how i wished you did
    but why even fight? you want me rid, so do it tonight
    so the pieces i'll sweep and pick up carefully
    mending my broken heart delicately, beautifully

    only to let it shatter again in your grasp
    do you still love me? why do i even bother to ask?
    because within this concealed mind of mine
    lives a love so strong it lives through all time

    but as for now it must be locked away
    for good? i cannot possibly say
    but i'll keep it there, praying for that day
    for when those lovely words you'll say
    and this time you'll mean
    when you believe in the glory of your dreams

    The End...perhaps