• watching them i realised i wouuld one day be there
    lying in that bed without joy of life left
    they lived there lifes
    never once did they think they would end up that way
    he drank and drank
    and still he said he had no problem
    now he lies in a pool of his own pity
    he did it himself yet he still says hes the victim
    she let it happen
    she let him control her
    she knew what it did to her children
    and yet she did nothing
    she wasnt a bad mother
    because she did what he wanted
    she was a bad mother
    because she did nothing
    she didnt see the pain he brought my mother
    a child should never raise themselves
    he was selfish
    and yet he thought high of himself
    now hes lying in that bed sourrounded
    by the truly sick
    people who cherished life and loved it are dying arounhd him
    yet hes still here
    he who cherished nothing,hated everything still stands
    he lies in the bed
    moaning and groaning
    all the while my mother watches and dies inside
    hes chooses to ignore his bad wrongs and concentrate on his now pain
    without even a glipse of apoligies
    he wanted it all and he got it
    he got it by taking it away from others
    he took it from his wife
    he took it from his daughter
    and now his son becomes the same
    like father like son
    i should love him
    or at least want to love him
    but i dont
    i dont love
    nor do i ever want to
    i want my hate to fuel
    i want to scream and
    say you did
    you ruined her life
    and now i see the concequences
    i hear her crys
    i see it in her eyes
    her heart was never whole
    it was never full
    and for this i blame you
    for this i hate you
    by srd sakura