• I take a
    Step forward,
    And find
    Myself
    Floating,
    Standing
    Upon a
    Balloon
    Filled with
    Happiness.
    Another step,
    Another
    Balloon
    It goes on.
    Never seeming
    To end.
    Inclining
    Like stairs,
    Filled with
    Joy.
    I look
    Down
    And see
    All the
    Pain
    I had
    Once lived.
    Another step,
    I fall.
    There was
    No
    Balloon there
    No happiness
    Nothing.
    I fall,
    Faster and
    Faster,
    Desperately,
    I grasp onto
    Clouds,
    Anything,
    To catch
    Me.
    But they
    Slip through
    My fingers
    And I
    Gain
    Speed.
    A jolt.
    So sudden,
    So harsh.
    Pain leeks
    Through my
    Barriers
    And I
    Look around
    Me.
    A hole,
    Dark,
    All around
    Me.
    A shovel
    Waits there,
    Leaning against
    The rock,
    Cold rock,
    Wall.
    Numbly, I
    Grab
    It. Shoving
    It into the wall.
    Trying to
    Climb
    Out of
    My misery.
    The wall
    Crumbles
    Around me,
    And I try
    Again.
    Each attempt
    Resulting in
    A failure.
    I break
    Down and
    Let my
    Barriers
    Collapse.
    The hurt
    Cascades
    Into me,
    And washes
    Over
    My glee.
    Hiding
    It.
    Drowning
    It.
    Killing
    It.
    The walls
    Open.
    The floor
    Narrows,
    And I
    Am forced
    To the middle.
    All around
    Me the
    Darkness
    Glows from
    The edges
    Of the
    Ground.
    A balloon
    Appears,
    So suddenly
    In front of
    Me.
    A step,
    That’s all
    I need.
    I could
    Hit
    The top,
    The peak,
    The happiness,
    I once stood.
    But,
    I could
    Fall
    Again
    And again.
    Just one
    Step.
    But,
    Another
    Direction,
    A step
    Behind,
    To the side,
    Around
    Happiness,
    Could
    Be better.
    The darkness
    Could swallow
    Me,
    Hold me
    Captive.
    And I
    Would be
    Falling in
    True pain,
    Rather
    Than floating
    In false
    Happiness.
    I turn
    Around and step
    Into
    The life
    I perversely
    Chose.