• A Feel Of Satan

    Every time I see you
    I dare you to make that move
    But you don’t see
    That I am suffering

    Every time it happens
    I gain a friend
    But in the end
    We fight to no end

    There is no end
    Till I turn
    To walk away
    And hurt for the longest of time

    People say a broken heart
    Is a worst pain
    But I doubt it is anything
    That I experienced

    Day in
    And
    Day out
    I struggle

    With a choice
    That I can only deal with
    But you sit there
    And you don’t see

    How different we are
    That we aren’t meant to be
    Not to be friends
    Not to be acquaintances

    I bend over and cry
    But you sign off
    And chat to your other friends
    While I sit here alone

    For a year we go on
    Being nice
    But then you turn
    And stab my back

    You fade away
    But you are a nightmare
    Till someone else comes
    And makes me want to die

    All I ask is for you to be gentle
    I deal with a thorn
    That I hold over myself
    Knowing I only have myself

    Here I sit today
    Lost in my own life line
    Wondering what I did wrong
    And feel the fault is mine

    But at the same time
    I poke holes
    To make it be your fault
    But you don’t commit

    I feel shattered
    That I place all this effort
    To be a friend for you
    But you aren’t back

    You ask for a second chance
    To only be bitter to me
    When I curl up and have my feelings dance
    All I want to do is scream out loud
    To beat you up
    To kill you endlessly
    To see you cry
    To see you break
    To pull my hair out
    And repeat

    I’m tired of all these apologies
    For they never mean anything
    Because you will make the same mistake
    To make me wish
    I was no where else
    But the grave

    How will I know I am the enemy?
    When you play these games
    I sit at the wall alone
    Till the next person comes