• Shaking,
    holding your letter in my hands,
    running in my head,
    "what have I done..." over
    and over and OVER again!

    I thrash about unwillingly,
    knocking over whatever I could,
    because it was inside me...
    burning my insides like a dark flame...

    Cold and afraid stares focus
    on me...
    so I stare back... cold as ice,
    though it's not their fault!

    At my sides, hands shaking cold,
    head throbbing pound after pound
    I hear, as well of sobs and...
    harsh breathing...

    Crouching... sitting... kneeling...
    I couldn't stand,
    too weak to even move,
    yet my body trembled.

    I was a monster...
    I was what I tried to avoid...
    I was the thing children are afraid of...
    I was the person that I truely am...

    Though not a person...

    I'm a monster...