• spiraling down a dark stair case
    trieg to reach you before you leave
    I get down just. just as the door slams shut
    my mother won't speak to me
    she thinks me as a disgrace
    just because I am different

    Daddy left today...
    again I reached him just as the door slammed
    I missed him again
    it's all your fault
    mother....why do you hate daddy?

    Daddy came back today!!!
    after 3 years of waiting he came back
    I rushed to the door and was the first to hug him.
    I felt mother's stare on me
    I always felt her stare on me
    watching every move I made
    I think she hates me more

    Mommy threw a fit
    she screamed at Daddy and told him lies.
    she said that he was cheating on her with another lady
    I sat by the door listening
    eavesdropping quietly.
    she said very mean things and started to throw stuff
    I ran up the stairs before they came out
    I cried myself to sleep

    Daddy came into my room...
    he kissed my forehead and told me not to worry
    how did he know i was listening?
    he pointed to my toe, it was bandaged
    i remember, i stepped on the broken vase
    my mommy threw it through the door.

    He told me he has to leave again
    but he'll be back soon.
    I hugged him goodbye and watched him leave

    My Mommy got more abusive and mad.
    she bullied me and hit me.
    scarred me physically and emotionally
    i said nothing
    knowing Daddy would come back soon and show me love

    Daddy came back after two months
    and saw me covered in bruises
    he asked me whats wrong
    I stayed quiet
    I didn't want to make him worry.
    he asked me if Mommy did this.
    again I stayed quiet.
    but I think my eyes betrayed me.
    he got up and went to see Mommy
    and again Mommy started fighting
    saying I was telling lies

    3 months later, when the abuse was getting more and more unbearable
    Daddy came back, he brought a lady with him
    I looked at the lady and she smiled at me with her pearly white teeth
    she said somethings I didn't hear
    I was too busy thinking if Daddy had cheated on Mommy
    Daddy said she was a social worker and was here to get me
    Mommy was crying somewhere I couldn't see
    I was confused. taking me away to where?

    3 years have passed and i'm living with Daddy.
    the lady from that time told me
    that she was going to give custody to Daddy
    I didn't understand until Mommy came down
    and started to verbally attack me again
    telling me I was a disgrace, filthy, b*****d child.
    Daddy told me to go upstairs and pack everything Iwanted to take
    I did.

    Now I spiral down the dark staircase.
    getting to you just in time
    and telling you to have a good day at work.
    I still don't see you everyday, for you travel alot.
    I have alot of fun with Grandma.
    Mommy is still sick, they tell me
    she has a mental issue.

    all my scars have healed, on the outside atleast
    but the love i get from Daddy and Grandma heal my heart
    and give me hope.
    Bye Daddy! Have a good day at work!!