• I used to think that it was all a contest, between me and him. To me, the score was always him: infinity; Me: negative infinity. I used to think"how the hell can I compete with him?" He could give her nice stuff, he can feed her, he can take all her fears and sorrow away from her. What could I do? What can I offer? Nothing but a shoulder to cry on and a compassionate embrace.

    I thought I was losing her, but the truth was that she was already gone. I was an idiot to try and hold something that wasn't there. I was stupid to think that we would grow up together, succeed together, die together. I've come to realize that those childish dreams would never be.

    I used to hate him. I used to loathe him. Venom would drip as I spoke of him, as I thought of him. I would imagine him in deathly situations, I would imagine him getting dumped by her. I pity him now. I pity this lovestruck puppy, obediantly following his abusive master everywhere she goes.

    I used to speak hightly of her. I used to say all these nice things about her. I would say, "Oh, you're going to love her! She's awesome, she'll fit right in!" and at first, everyone did love her. Nory met her in middle school, then Amy and her spoke on the phone, Ciante met her in Anime Club, and finally Ori met her the first day of school. That love turned to distaste, and for some people, hate. Jose used to be in love with her, he would've done anything for her. He hates her now, and I don't blame him.

    Those two... meeting eachother was the biggest mistake of their lives. They are losing so much, and they don't even realize it. He has lost his freedom, trading it to be commanded by his abusive master. She is losing everything dear to her, including myself. They have traded everything most precious to them for some petty love. Love that would never blossom into anything else.

    She always says that she would never allow anyone to hurt me. She would say that she would punish anyone who did. But does she realize that she's the one doing it now?