• I walk down the hall.
    seeing all the happy couples and feeling all the pain.
    I walk into homeroom and i see you.
    you look at me but quickly look away.
    i feel more pain, knowing what i had with you that i lost.
    i sigh and pull out something to distract myself but nothing works.
    i see you smiling and talking to other people and i have to swallow hard.
    the bell rings and i walk back into the halls.
    once again see the couples, happy and i shake my head.
    i go through classes dealing with pain.
    i walk through the halls and see you.
    you see me but you look away.
    i swallow hard, knowing that you don't care,
    I'm dying on the inside.
    i finish out the day faking smiles here and there,
    hugs from some people that i know.
    they tell me i look great and i just nod and say thank you.
    they're not the people i want to hear it from so it doesn't matter.
    i hit the end of the day and i walk with someone i know outside.
    you are no where in sight, but that won't be for long.
    you meet with the people you know after minutes of torture for me.
    i swallow hard as i see you smiling and having fun.
    the person with me says to cheer up or what's wrong.
    i shake my head, i don't need her going to my best freind telling them I'm miserable.
    the time comes where they yell for everyone to get on the bus to leave and i hurry there.
    I'm on there and I'm blasting my music.
    there are so many thought going through my head about what happened.
    i find stuff from you that i start to read.
    I'm able to fight back tears now,
    I've been in so much pain,
    I've earned that skill.
    the routine repeats over and over until today.
    i walk through and see no couples but i still feel the pain.
    i walk in homeroom and I'm the third person in.
    i shrug and talk to someone i know about the homework last night when you walk in.
    i bite my lip and say, 'I'll talk to you in gym'
    they nod and know what the reason is.
    i go to my desk and i see you just sitting there with your head down.
    i get up the guts to ask if you're all right.
    you nod and say you're just tired.
    i nod and the bell rings to leave.
    i go through the classes and then i see you in the hall like i do at the same time everyday.
    you look horrible but I'm thinking it's nothing, you're just tired.
    i go through the rest of the day and don't see you again.
    i see you at the end of the day by the buses and you just get on your bus.
    i sigh and figure there must be something up.
    i swallow hard, i two questions to ask anyway so i say I'm getting on the bus.
    i get on the bus and text the first thing.
    you tell me a line that i was fine with but get the answer to a question that i didn't want to ask.
    i find out you're fine with out me and you were just tired today.
    i feel horrible after you say that.
    even though it was not in those words.
    i finally say i have homework to do even though I'm still on the bus.
    i couldn't continue talking to you.
    i walk through the halls today and i don't even get a hi from you.
    you look fine but i feel horrible.
    i get accused of cutting and then get ready to kill the next person who says it to me.
    i get hugs from random people and people i know and i just shrug it off.
    i get to the end of the day and my other ex comes up to me.
    he can tell something's wrong so he pulls me into a hug.
    i push back quickly and shake my head.
    he looks at me confused and trys to pull me into another hug.
    i shake his touch off and say don't.
    he nods but says, 'what's wrong?'
    i shrug and say nothing.
    he nods and then it's time to get on the bus.
    i walk to get on the bus and he pulls me into a hug again.
    i pull away quickly and say I'll see you tomorrow.
    he nods and i get on the bus.
    i feel horrible but don't want many to see it.
    you're happy and I'm not so i don't know what to do...
    i text you and you ask why?
    i become a b***h to you and then later text you apologizing.
    you turn into a jerk face and tell me to leave you alone and tell me you have a new girlfriend.
    i get the breath knocked out of me.
    i see you in school and you ignore my existence.
    i tell people what you told me and my friends want to kill you.
    hell i want to kill you.
    I'm taking all this pretty hard.
    i feel miserable but act like I'm fine.
    you hurt me when you said you never would.
    I'm slowly moving on,
    but if you are going to tell me lies about myself and rub stuff in my face,
    it'll take even longer.
    you said you want me to leave you alone.
    even though i don't want to i will...
    consider this a good bye.