• I always say I don't need you, but I always turn around and come crawling back. You help me up when I'm down, and when I'm too high you pull me to the ground. You erase my pain and help me forget. Without you, I'd be lost.
    When John died, I reached for you and you helped me through it. But at the same time, you tore me down. You destroyed me. You made me sink so low I couldn't pull myself out. I was buried in drunken rage and you turned me into a monster. I lost myself in you.
    I wanted so bad to let you go, but I couldn't -and I still can't. I'm so addicted to you. I don't know how to stop. I don't know where to turn to -who to turn to. No one can save me. I've sunk too far -you drowned me. What a miserable and pathetic existence. I'm nothing. I'm nothing without you.
    I wish someone would have found me before it was too late. I wanted someone to save me from you, but no one heard me crying. You masked my pain with rage. You made me appear cruel and heartless, when really I was screaming for help.
    But you know, there was one man that might have rescued me. Too bad he's gone now. I pushed him away just like I pushed everyone else. I wish I hadn't. I wish I never let him go in the first place.
    If only I could tell Constantine how sorry I am, but it's too late for that right? I lost him, and along with him, my hope.
    So, you've won. I'm your's, but you know what...
    Screw you Alcohol.