• "Your a freak."

    That's what I've had to listen to for almost my whole life.

    Why? It's because I'm different.

    They say I walk funny. Maybe even talk funny. Look funny, too. They tell me I'm a freak of nature, and repeatingly say the world would be a much better place if I was never born.

    Some days, I believe that.

    Some days I almost take the final step, ending it all. But, I'm a coward. I can't do it. I couldn't take a life, much less my very own.

    So, I just cry to myself at night. I close the door so no one can hear.

    God, I hate the orphanage.

    Of course, today was such a day in which I was picked on and teased.

    "No one would miss you, eveyone hates you. Why don't you just make everyone's life easier and kill yourself? You'd save the trouble of someone just doing it later"

    The bullies laughed as they watched me cry. I got up and ran away.

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    Where do I go? Where I normally do. The Bridge.

    I sit on the edge. Maybe that bully was right. I'd be doing someone a favor by just jumping off the bridge right now.

    Now, if I can stop being a coward and just jump.

    Maybe a Pros and Cons list?

    I take out the notebook I usually carry with me. Of course, a pen too.

    What would go on the Pros list?

    I'd make everyone happy. I'd die soon, anyway. No one loved me.

    Cons list?

    ..what would I put on it? Sure, there'd be an extra bunk in my room. Someone would fill it the next day.

    "Wow, for once, the Pros outnumber the Cons."

    Well, I guess...

    Who cared, anyway?

    I jumped.